Weary and Burdened

Come to me all you who are weary and burdened, and I will give you rest (Matt. 11:28)

These verses have rung true to me tonight as we have had our prayer vigil. Since talking with Katie the other night (I believe it was Sunday night), my soul has been weary and burdened. She brought to light some things that I had not thought about in the last eight weeks, and I sincerely thank her for that.

My soul still is restless, as am I. I am so confused and lost right now that it is somewhat absurd. I don't really know what to think or do (I am sorry that I feel it necessary to not shed too much light on the topic about which I am writing. Katie, I think that you know the topic and may be able to talk with me sometime before we leave about it). I got to pray silently about it some tonight, but I feel that I have prayed in vain and didn't have the right mindset going into my prayers.

Again and again, I read that if we ask, we shall receive. Perhaps I am not asking with a willing heart or a correct attitude.

Perhaps, I am not willing to believe that God will actually provide. Maybe I am lacking faith in Him to live true to His word, which is a bit ridiculous when looking at the Scriptures.

My soul finds rest in God alone; my salvation comes from him (Ps. 62:1).

Does my soul find rest in him? Do I allow my soul to find rest in him? Do I prevent myself from finding rest in him?

These are all legitimate questions since I find myself so weary and burdened over the last few days. I will continue to pray for rest, as well as clarification about this issue. I just need to begin to have the hope and the trust that God will be faithful to me, as he has been so many times in the past.